Getting re-acquainted with you
When I was a little girl, I loved being outside. I would pick the most beautiful wild flowers and I would gift my bunches to my mother, the neighbour or other people in our village. Later on I would put them in my little flower press and keep them in a special notebook with their Latin names. Or I would make postcards with them to send to family and friends. On a rainy day I would bake biscuits. I would lose any sense of time and just be focused on the sticky dough between my fingers and the smell of homemade pastries. No wonder I dreamt of becoming either a florist or a baker.
Yet I never became either, because school, university and later on work shifted my focus from my childhood passions to increasing knowledge, salaries and performance. It went so gradually that I didn’t even notice the shift. Only to realise one day that I was completely lost. I couldn’t even explain what had happened exactly or what had caused my overall burn-out, I just felt lost. And the only thing I did was literally letting go of everything I knew. I called this my Project Reset and fully embraced it.
Today I realise that what had happened had nothing to do with the pressure my job gave me or the relationship I was in that I couldn’t sustain. It wasn’t even my aspiration to perfectionism or wanting to please everyone else, while forgetting about myself. It occured to me that what had really happened, was that I had disconnected myself from the little girl inside of me. The little girl that used to love the freedom of the outdoors and the comfort of homey activities. Unconciously I had become alienated from those simple things in life that make me utterly happy resulting in me losing myself.
Acknowledge and listen
Realising where it was that I had taken this turn in my life, was the start of changing my direction. Thankfully I realised that this little girl is still inside of me: she has never left. And the only thing it takes for me to revive her is to acknowledge her and listen to what she has to say. Believe me, she has the best ideas when it comes to winding down and relaxation! She might even be my own little guru. This little girl helps me to stay centred and authentic to who I am. Her voice is the most powerful in my life.
Your own little guru
The greatest gift is that we all have a little girl inside of us. Or a little boy if you wish. A little person that had big dreams when you were growing up. And that is all still inside of you! What were your dreams and favourite pastimes? What would you hear if you were to acknowledge and listen to your own little guru? When was the last time you really did what you’ve always loved doing? And what is stopping you from doing that right now? Be still. Take a deep breath. And be amazed by her wisdom.
So, if you would excuse me. I have to go and bake a cake.